.::my long journey::.

firstly , Happy birthday to every #Sagittarius around the world. I hope you continue to be real and honest even if it means hurting someones source : @ZodiacFacts omo, this november , so many friends celebrate their birthday, and of course me too, although without party , etc . hahaha and i get more lazy , lazy and lazy. is winter gonna come soon? ow, i wish. but, i'm in indonesia, maybe just rain comes everytime.. ;'( and have exam on this month, makes me sick. :( i'm too lazy to study , also i don't have complete notebook for my study :( hope God always bless me :( tomorrow has math and history tests. wish me luck , guys :) i pray for your all happiness :D keep smiling :) that's what makes your day brightly :)

in this 16th , i'm still i am. haha never thought that i would get older, older and older and realized, why i still like this? never change, just the-still-me immature, spoiled, and have examination on this birthday~ hwhw *sob* oh! and still look innocent yet sly~ LOL be careful with me ~ lalala~ XD oh. i hope everyone will more caring to me. i love to be loved :) also, i wanna get everything i want. huhu.. really, everything i wanted is just a dream. like laptop, android phone, and else. haha happy birthday for those who celebrate your birthday in this day , may God bless u all, and may all your wish come true :)

well"~ you can see from those picts i took from tumblr. i love her curly hair than straight. she looked more cute and beautiful with curly hair, and that's her characteristic :(

mungkin aku perfeksionis mungkin aku sinis mungkin aku curigaan mungkin juga aku pelit the possibility always there who knows that something will happen? aku mungkin terlalu jujur aku mungkin terlalu naif mungkin sok suci tapi di atas itu semua, aku ingin bertanya, "pertemanan apa yg kau tawarkan padaku?" sejujurnya, aku tak mengharapkan kau ingin menjadi temanku dan aku tak pernah mencari seorang teman kau datang begitu saja, dan mengatakan bahwa kita adalah teman aku menerimanya, berpikir bahwa mungkin setiap hari akan berbeda jika memiliki teman tapi kau tahu aku mulai berpikir bahwa mungkin aku salah aku terlalu mempercayai orang lain atau mungkin aku yang terlalu buta ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- huft, cukup bertele-tele aku pengen cerita haha mungkin kalian kira aku naif, sok jujur, it's ok that's myself :) kemaren, gw ngerjain tugas sejarah dari guru sejarah saya, sebut saja namanya pak Ade (beneran kok) ...

Mood : Happy~ Song : S.E.O.U.L Song~ - Super Junior ft. SNSD yeay"~ i felt so happy last wednesday he asked me for chatting, because usually, i asked him first. i love to tell him story. *ups, u know who i mean in this post* well, if i just love to tell him my story, does that mean i like him? no , right? i just feel comfortable with him. he's a good listener, he loves joking and makes me laugh lots, can't help it if u are with him. and i think, he will be one of my best friends because that's so rare to find someone who could along with me. no wonder if i got many friends but they just passed in and out in my life. he's different, i'm sure that he just think of me as a friend :) ya know, best friend is everlasting when love just pass by.

malam penuh bintang bersinar dengan cahyanya yang penuh memancarkan keceriaan malam berpendar begitu indah namun, hatiku tidaklah seceria malam ini hatiku terus bertanya dan berteriak kepada siapakah hati ini memilih karena ku selalu mengingat dirimu dirimu yang seharusnya kulupakan dan haruskah kutanyakan hal ini pada bintang di atas sana apakah kau juga memikirkanku karena setiap saat kau ada di benakku kau yang sepertinya masuk terlalu dalam di hatiku mungkin seharusnya dari awal kututup pintu hati ini karena kau berbeda karena KITA berbeda "bintang-bintang yang bercahaya, maukah kau kabulkan satu permintaanku? aku ingin kau beriku keajaiban agar aku dan dia bersatu semua perbedaan antara kami hilang" tak bolehkah kuperoleh kebahagiaan kecil ini? hanya bersamanya..

first love. what first thought comes out from your mind? impressive? unforgettable? yes. that's all true impressed in the heart and i don't know, why maybe that's because our first experience in love but surely, i never felt in love with him just the thought about him is really impressed in me.. the love i have felt to him, it had just disappeared as the time passed... but, although first love is unforgettable, we should look for a new love~ something new always makes me happy~ :D

aaaaaaaaaa... ini masih tanggal mudaaaa tapi gw uda bokek pengen manage uang jajan, tapi ga dikasih bulanan kan biar ga bokek tanggal muda gini huhu eh, kok tanggal muda ya? maksudnya tiap minggu gw slalu bokek huhu ngga pernah punya cukup uang buat bli barang yg gw pengin, mana pula selalu muncul tiap awal bulan, eh, pas akhir bulan adem ayem, tapi bayarnya tetep jalan *alias pake nyicil* hikx. naaa, tolong ajarin gw manage uang per minggu dongggggg gw cm bisa manage per bulan. hahhaa~ plizzzzzzzzz

i'm really sorry to u, dear my friend u can say i'm a blabbermouth u can say i'm a backstabber but actually, i never wanted to do anything which can hurt u purposely it' done without i knew i never want n i never will do something stupid like that i'm really sorry for what i've done if it hurts you and it's all up to u, still be my friend or not and i didn't expect for a friend, i just want someone wanna believe me and i know i'm not a good secret-keeper don't pretend to be my friend after all coz it's disgusting i'm sorry, everything is my mistakes that's all u never asked my promise not to tell it to everyone i knew it, and just so u know, i just told it to my very best-friends, so that they can give u advice, their opinion, etc. i'm really sorry if what i did is wrong and it's hurt u so much.

nah, lho, apa sih yang kalian pikirkan saat membuka entri ini? yang pastinya kalian pikir ini berisi tentang keluhan siswa mengenai sekolah saat ini well, betulnya setengah aja ya. soalnya mau ditambah dengan keluhan lainnya hehe nah, yang saat ini di post adalah keluhan dari saya dulu well, orang yang beriman tidak boleh mengeluh dan mengeluh adalah hal yang ngga penting *katanya* tapi, klo mengeluh supaya ngga mengendap di hati tar meledak, kan boleh? hehe 1. mengapa tugas dan ulangan semakin banyak akhir-akhir ini? kami, siswa-siswi juga butuh istirahat. klo tau gini, mending tukeran aja, kami jadi guru, guru jadi murid. kan enak toh kami nyuruh" guru buat tugas ini tugas itu :P 2. standar ketuntasan semakin meningkat --> bikin stress! dimana saat ini persaingan di dalam kelas aja udah bikin puyeng, gmana mo tuntas smua klo smua pada diatas 70? 3. ujian nasional diadakan? mampus deh gue. banyak anak" yg pada ngga fair! jujur saja, peredaran kunci jawaban UN takkan bisa ...

well"~ through this week, i got many lessons some are unimportant, some are really bad... huhu yak dimulai hari ini dulu deh ceritanya. bener" dah baru awal november uda sial ni aja abis jatoh di kelas, tersungkur, dan lebih parahnya, rokku robek di belakangnya. mungkin pas aq coba loncat supaya wajahku ngga kena lantai, tapi beneran, malu. susah banget nutupinnya. tinggi lagi. Pesan yang pertama, saat kau jatuh, jangan lupa liat rokmu, apakah robek apa ngga. soalnya, uda ribet, malu, bete deh. hwhw terus, aq baru menyadari, klo jatuh itu sangat sakit ya. jangan sampai kehidupanku juga jatuh. hmm. yang luka baru kaki, klo hidup kita yang jatuh, yang sakit pasti hati ~.~ ahhhh~ lupa. HAPPY 5th ANNIVERSARY SUPER JUNIOR ON November 6th~ XD wat a nice day on that day. XD aaa... and also, have many tests in this month. and have exam too.. huhuhu.. wish me luck guys. wont online till next month T_________T

Aku anak domba yang tersesat Tersesat di hutan belantara Aku anak domba yang tersesat Yang merindukan sang penggembala Kemanakah ku harus pergi? Ke kanan atau ke kiri? Ke depan atau ke belakang? Aku anak domba yang tersesat Yang tak tahu jalan pulang

kau tahu betapa menyenangkannya sebuah balas dendam kau memang merasa puas dengan balas dendam itu tetapi hatimu tidak dan balas dendam hanya membuat tanganmu sakit dan hati nuranimu akan berteriak "aku bersalah sudah membalas dendam" aku merasakannya rasanya sakit tidak hanya tanganku, tetapi juga hatiku hati nuraniku menyadarkanku saat aku sudah melakukannya dan itu membuatku penuh penyesalan "apalah gunanya balas dendam? itu takkan memuaskanmu. sebaliknya, yang tertinggal hanyalah penyesalan dan rasa bersalah" betapa menyedihkannya hidup ini! pembalasan dendam terus dilakukan tetapi saat disadarkan tak terkira, betapa besar penyesalan itu betapa besar rasa bersalah itu seolah-olah Tuhan BERHAK menghukumku tanpa ampun kepenatan pun mulai menyusul betapa sedihnya, betapa bersalahnya semua itu berputar di kepalaku dan mengapa penghakiman belum datang kepadaku? aku hanya ingin menghilangkan semua ini dengan penghakiman itu dan kau tahu apa alasan dibalik semua pembal...

Mood : bad Listen to : SNSD-Mistake nobody visit my blog.. ugh.. that means my blog is really worst! aaaaaaaaaaa.... i just want the exam-month pass and i can watch many dvds i have borrowed from my friend, do karaoke wif my best friends, ask someone to teach me play piano, and take ielts course! :) won't update this blog for a month, prepare for exam. ugh! i HATE exams!!! *who doesn't?

well"~ today i wanna be crazy, just once *actually im always crazy :P* i have lotsa things i wanna say.. not just in poem or kind of story but, i always wanna try to speak forward i always hide myself in the shadow but, now, imma going to out from this shadow and speak loud, so that u can hear, what i really want i always want to make a FACTS PAGE about me, so that ppl can know about me well. i wanna tell ppl that im so stingy, but i always be kind to my friends and especially my best friends :) i'm a sensitive, active but sometimes passive, i always try to make everybody knows me, because i HATE alone or being lonely, and etc. haha i always wanna do the MOST crazy thing that ppl never done before. i always wanna try to learn piano, violin, i love those instruments :) i want my friends never forget about me. because it makes me sad, like they forgot to invite me to their birthday party, i think that they just thought that i'm just an acquaintance :( i always wanna say that...