.::my long journey::.

Night after night I'm awake on my bed After spending the happiest day in my life Now I feel so empty Wonder why does it feel like this? Cold air blew my face I can only shiver under my blanket Thinking of the happy day And how empty I feel right now Am I being ungrateful? Or is it because I spent the "happiest" day in lie? Ah I guess it's just there is no somebody to share the story with...

You came unexpectedly On the red moon Or like now Hit me so sudden like a prick of needle, then so blunt like a plate hit me flat on my head Then came the roll of wave from my stomach, trying to push out its content My only savior is paracetamol For I can't get rid the pain unless I swallow it. *Trying to write a poem about migraine, but I can't come up with hyperbole to explain about migraine hahahaha. Will read more 💪

大家好, Hello everybody, 我是Jessie。 I am Jessie 為什麼我要寫用漢語，因為我要可以寫和說話用中文 Why I want to write in Mandarin, because I want to be able to write and speak in Mandarin. 今天，我要開始和朋友們一起玩 "Dungeons and Dragons". Today, I am going to start playing "Dungeons and Dragons" with my friends. 我已經待在家里三個月了，什麼也沒做，我的朋友問我 是否 想和他們一起玩這個遊戲。 Wǒ yǐjīng dài zài jiālǐ sān gè yuèle, shénme yě méi zuò, wǒ de péngyǒu wèn wǒ shìfǒu xiǎng hé tāmen yīqǐ wán zhège yóuxì. I have been staying at home for 3 months doing nothing and my friend asked me if I want to join them playing this game. 我當時想在下一篇 博客 文章中放中文和英文歌曲歌詞。 Wǒ dāngshí xiǎng zàixià yī piān bókè wénzhāng zhōng fàng zhōngwén hé yīngwén gēqǔ gēcí. I was thinking that I want to put song lyric in Mandarin and English on the next blog post. 這將是我最喜歡的歌曲 Zhè jiāng shì wǒ zuì xǐhuān de gēqǔ it would be my favorite songs 我想在接下來的6個月內開始學習中文。 Wǒ xiǎng zài jiē xiàlái de 6 gè yuè nèi kāishǐ xuéxí Zhōngwén. I want to start learning Mandarin in the next 6 months. ...

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