empty

Night after night
I'm awake on my bed
After spending the happiest day in my life
Now I feel so empty
Wonder why does it feel like this?

Cold air blew my face
I can only shiver under my blanket
Thinking of the happy day
And how empty I feel right now
Am I being ungrateful?
Or is it because I spent the "happiest" day in lie?

Ah I guess it's just there is no somebody to share the story with...

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