cut it out
She asked me if he cuts it out for my ideal man. I told her that no, he does not. But the truth is, dear, he could make it, but I deny it. I don't want our relationship to change. I'm not ready, I think, as much as I want to have a relationship, to have a partner. I am afraid he will reject me first before I can ever say I'm interested in him. I'm afraid of the changes in our friendship. I'm afraid that he's not the one and I would feel heartbroken. I'm still too afraid, and maybe I'm the one who doesn't cut it out for him