Journal 127 : friends
hola~ it has been a long time since i'm writing. not in the mood to write. i was thinking about friends. i was wondering, why i have so many people being called as "my friends" when i talk to other people, yet i don't feel the sense of belonging with those people. why those people are simply and easily being called as my friends when i don't ever feel their presence, when i don't ever think about them whenever i need companion. i can't even think who are the closest to me, who are simply just wanna be my friends and won't demand something from me, those who are just gonna fade away after one time introduction. who are you, my friends? i guess i have no friends. it's hard to have friends. you must have the similar hobbies and all, and actually, face to face, distance , time make most of it to bond people in friendship and i don't have it all. it's hard for me to be involved in face to face conversation. i'm seriously bad in small t...