.::my long journey::.

dedicated to my beloved grandma... it is hard to keep a happy demeanor when all you wanna do is cry and don't have to explain for it. I keep telling myself to keep my cry at home but the emotion always comes out in the wrong time when I am not supposed to cry but my eyes end up red and watery. I hate to explain why I keep feeling sad whenever I am outside because I feel even more lonely in the crowds. As I prayed, I can't stop my mind to think about the past, about the memories. My grandma, for all her glowing kindness and wisdom, I would like to say a proper good bye to her. Sayonara, grandma, hope you are happy above there, hope you will reincarnate and be happy, no regrets, and hope all of our families won't be ongoing grief, as we pray for your happiness, we hope you bless us to be happy too, even without you, that our life will go on, but we won't forget you and keep praying for you. To tell you the truth, I cried before I knew about the news from my mom. It...

I feel lost and keep asking "where am I belong to..." as if this soul has wandered far away without the remembrance of its root as I keep walking this tears won't come out as I keep going I held my head high strength as my virtue won't let myself down even though I am lost lost will not let me stop I will keep walking till I find the far end end... as if I will stop there -17.04.14

I miss home... feel so lonely here. hahaha. I want to go back because I don't feel that I have someone who care for me here. not when I'm feeling so sad like this. I want to go back home, it is hard to keep standing alone when you just don't have someone to support you by your side. it feels heavy inside my heart... I just wanna go back home to ease it... maybe I should just go escape myself home sweet home home is where I feel I am belonged home is where I feel people support me home is where I feel loved home is where I am back home is where I have no heavy feeling when it is time to go back, I have the destination home is when you feel lonely, they got your back, and make you laugh home is when you feel the world goes against you, and these people fighting along side you home is when I have no power to fight, and they give their shoulder to lean on home is where I am belonged.... home sweet home

Hola! I am backkkk~ this is the busiest month everrr in my campus life. Oh yeaa, I am still studying, sorry to disappoint you with my old chatty chat in the previous blog. lol. To be honest, I love being busy. lol. It occupies my mind with things I need to do and I keep moving. That's, maybe, one of the secret, why I became quite fat now (move to another restaurant, doing assignment and eat there. lol) This time has come for me as a semester 4 college student. hell, so many assignments, project assignment, group assignment, presentation. Give me a break please. and, ohlala, I understand now why the staff in my internship place there always work overtime. The demand of quotations and how 2 people can handle all the requests and tours and still need to follow up until the end of the tours and the clients go back to their home country, is just a REAL deal! Only asking for quotation for 1 tour (from different travel agent) and I'm already going to be a mad girl. lol. Feeling d...

Wake up in the morning, feeling like to do anything with my laptop and end up having an urge to update my blog. Nee, it has been a while, right? :D and suddenly I got this idea because of one word "feisty". I never know its meaning until I crossed over it yesterday in a novel and because I was soooo curious of its meaning, I searched it in Google and said: spirited, excitable(?), on the other hand it could be mean, easily angered. well, I think, people who have this feisty character must be full of spirit (me too me too!) and feeling like to change my blog link to that name. lol. I was very busy lately (finally I admit it