.::my long journey::.

Listening to: Ariana Grande ft. Nathan Sykes - Almost is Never Enough happy bday to meee, yeayyyy!! actually yesterday is my birthday, and i feel so sad that none of my close friends remember my birthday, while I remember theirs. I know I didn't put my birthday in fb, but then, I was hoping they would remember. this year is the loneliest one. :( i don't want to remember my birthday for next year, it seems that no one would celebrate it except my family (if i can go back on my birthday). well, i supposed to buy myself a cake and a present. but it's okay. :) i still have my family who loves me. today is

after a while, I realized, I supposed to ask the person whether they want their pic to be posted or tagged in Facebook. for me, I always thought that well, i am the one who took the picture, so it supposed to be my right to post it or not, but when the reality hits, the object is the one who has the full right to asked the photographer take it down or let it be. I am okay if the person that I took the picture wants me to take down their pictures, but I really hate it when they used inappropriate words such as fuck , shit, and their other family relation. do you think taking your picture worth your insults? NO! if you want me to take it down, just write you don't want to be tagged, or you want me to delete the picture, i will obey it. simple as that. some of people that i took the pictures are my friends, but I hate to say that even friends, i won't simply accept the insults. people never want to be in others's shoes, but they always want us in their shoes. it's hard to...

the scenery beside the main house homestay. breathtaking isn's it? <3 sorry for the blur, there was water on my lens and I did not recognize enjoying the breeze~ playing kites! (layang-layang) here is Homestay Kampung Sungai Haji Dorani. pretty hibiscus <3 2 days 1 night which is more like a floating dream for me since i don't really think that i want to wake up from my nice dream. seriously, i love the living in village, it's very calm and relax, no rush, when you listen to music, all the music you want to hear is already in the nature. and i feel quite guilty when i turned on my phone to listen to the music in my phone. it's just the situation inside the van is so quite, and i can't stand quietness. I'm very serious that all you want to hear is the sound of birds, insects, the leaves that rub against each other by the wind, and the sound of the wind itself. ah, forgot to mention that I stayed in Kampung Sungai Haji Dorani H...

Playlist: Narsha - I'm in Love. (bukan karna saya lagi fall in love, tapi karna lagunya bagus aja)

I guess I found the answer now. I'm afraid of being hurt. Nah, nevermind. 'tis just my realization tonight while looking at window in the bus and reflect upon what happen today. I tend to avoid people who try to get close with me. What I said in my brain was treat this person nicely, answer them in polite way, but yeah, in the end I end up answering them in hmm, quite rude way, and I can't even make any further conversation with them. and shoot, I think there is something wrong with me that I tend to avoid people. why? and I guess I will take the counselling session again. :'( Btw, happy halloween everyone! It supposed to be yesterday, but I just celebrated it today with bunch of my friends in anime society. Well, every time I'm telling people that I join anime society, it feels like they see it as a kids community. I hate how they already think that way without even experiencing it. and I feel like I find a balance between PATA-MTSC and Anime Society, when PATA ...