.::my long journey::.

Why so many people open their mouth thoughtlessly? Do they feel like it's okay to judge other people because they "assume" that they are in better situation than other people and other people should live with their standard? Seriously. Last afternoon really shocked me. This person doesn't even know me at all, but without any care, saying that I'm only playing with my phone, doing nothing when my family's doing work every time this person came. I mean, what am I supposed to do when I don't even have anything to do at the moment when that person came and saw me?? Like what the heck do you mean by saying that? Because I'm the oldest daughter and I'm supposed to work and do something useful for my parents? And by saying that meaning I'm not gonna get hurt by your words? Because I do know what you meant by that, like I'm such a useless woman for being unemployed and do nothing to help my parents. People are so judgmental towards jobless people...

It's been a long time since I wrote in my blog. I used to write in my blog as my diary. or my book review. Now, I am only writing my book review in Goodreads. anyway, it's been 8 months since I resigned from my first job. At first, I don't regret it, now I regret it sometimes because I thought that maybe I can endure it more rather than give up so easily. But then, the situation there isn't exactly healthy, I keep being annoyed and angry whenever I told my parents about my work, and they said maybe it's time to find other place. However, until now, I haven't found the new place yet. I wonder what's wrong with me. Is it my resume or just myself? I admit that I'm quite picky to find new job this time because I don't want to waste my time starting over again. My focus this time is I want to take a job I'm confident in doing it. Still related to tourism would be nice.  Why I wrote this is because I was hoping to get some relief. Lately, I have fel...