.::my long journey::.

sometimes life turns you to an unexpected path the path that leads in front is full of pebbles, makes you hard to go smoothly forward but in the middle of the journey, you'll find people who will become your friends or enemies. whichever is your choice for me, I found that not everyone can be your friend at the beginning they somehow can become your enemy, or not even anything those who starts off as your friend, might become your enemy on the next day but what I understand is that, I must never talk behind them people are sensitive and we want respect and trust in return but to those who stays as my friends thank you very much you never know how thankful I am to have you guys to share my story, my burden and happiness with you all to receive the wise advice and suggestion to know that I am cherished and so am I, cherish you all in my life. :)

most of the time we talk about love why love is so interesting? well... the heart beating the thought of someone that makes you smile no reason the small little thing you remember about them even in your daily life makes you think of them the heart that is beating for someone even faster ever stronger the rush on your ear the singing in your blood the butterfly in your stomach would you switch it to something trivial the experience won't be the same the birds won't be singing as beautifully the air won't be as fresh the sky won't be as blue and bright if love wasn't there

when the loneliness hit what did you do? well, me, I would cling on to someone who would listen to my weird joke on first hearing who would sit beside me during lunch who would talk to me about their day who would make me laugh easily but, I know that that loneliness would turn up into so I tried to avoid it like a plague but when someone chase away your loneliness it would make them your superhero they become the light in your life and the closer you are to the light the bigger shadow in your heart that make you realize, once the light has gone it will turn into darkness the darkness in the heart that turns into cold and loneliness somehow, everything turns back into the time the time when we begin...

well, here I am new city, new ambiance was thinking if I will ever fit in this loneliness somehow succumb me into the next level life was never always beautiful too happy makes you drown without realizing life goes on so does time before I always think I have it all but now, reality crashes in and I don't know what to do people don't trust easily when you show your heart on your sleeve you gotta put on the same mask and they will feel uneasy no more so I put my heads up well I am trying to tell myself to put myself first tell myself to love myself in this lonely city so that I won't think of depending on anyone hey, isn't this part of growing up? you come and go they come and go those who stays, will stay forever but some will move on indeed, life goes on and here I am starting over hopefully, I can survive this and be the champion myself proud of.