.::my long journey::.

to final exam. OTL. but it's near to christmas and new year, and i can't wait to go back to my hometown! can't wait to meet my familia and my friends. can't wait to eat a lot of foods that i'm craving so much during my stay here. i'm just away from home for 3 months and i felt already gone for 3 years. haha. each day passed has already been a long day. can't wait can't wait! *feel so excited* but remembering exam makes me think to study hard so that i won't get re-sit. somehow, exam makes me feel full of spirit. i feel so sad lately, that I always feel bad when i'm with my friends. i feel like it's not good for me to be around them. they make me think the worst of me when i'm around them. it's not good for my health, i think. so i decided, maybe to make a distant between me and my friends. i can't let them know more about my feeling again. i can't share it freely to them now. i have to think over first before i speak out. ...

ga terasa Desember udah dateng. padahal kemaren baru buat post hello november. hahaha. saya sekarang jadi ngga aktif lagi gara-gara kuliah. tugas menumpuk, test mulu. huwaaaaa. kata senior saya, kalo ga sibuk bukan kuliah namanya. hahaha. ga kurang tidur juga bukan kuliah namanya. lol. iaa deh, saya kurang tidur mulu, padahal baru semester 1. haaaa... gmana tar semester 2,3? ga tau deh. saya mencoba bertahan dulu. hahaha. kehidupan kuliah saya ga berjalan begitu mulus. bagian relationship aja. kalo belajar mah lumayan, ga jelek2 amat nilainya, standar, ga pinter ga bego juga. hahaha. susah sih menyesuaikan diri, apalagi sama bahasa pengantarnya, bahasa inggris. ga bisa pake bahasa indonesia, sedih deh saya. :( makanya tiap presentasi (ini nih!) bikin saya kewalahan. pusing mikirin kata2nya, translate dari indonesia ke inggris dalam kepala. tapi harus dibiasakan. hehe. relationship, bukan sama pacar sih (belum punya, hahaha) tapi sama temen. mungkin karena umur teman2 saya bervarias...