roller coaster feels

It's been a long time since I wrote in my blog. I used to write in my blog as my diary. or my book review. Now, I am only writing my book review in Goodreads.

anyway, it's been 8 months since I resigned from my first job. At first, I don't regret it, now I regret it sometimes because I thought that maybe I can endure it more rather than give up so easily. But then, the situation there isn't exactly healthy, I keep being annoyed and angry whenever I told my parents about my work, and they said maybe it's time to find other place. However, until now, I haven't found the new place yet. I wonder what's wrong with me. Is it my resume or just myself?

I admit that I'm quite picky to find new job this time because I don't want to waste my time starting over again. My focus this time is I want to take a job I'm confident in doing it. Still related to tourism would be nice. 

Why I wrote this is because I was hoping to get some relief. Lately, I have felt sluggish and sad whenever the thought of my unemployment state appears. I do have some stuff to do at home, helping my parents with their business and yoga class. But it's not enough. I want to be capable of doing my own work, earn my own money and make my parents proud of me. They have been kind as not mentioning about my unemployment and told me I can stay whenever I want and not feeling pushed to find a job. Inside, I felt different, I can't accept it. 

I'm still applying to some places, which I hope would give me answer as soon as possible. 

Have a nice day, everyone :)