what the heck am i doing right now?

 it's November, another 1 month towards the end of year

what the heck am i doing right now?

worked as recruiter, rejecting jobs as recruiter

do i really wanna do it? i don't

i don't think being sales person is what i want

but i can always give my 100% effort to work

i wanna restart my life

can i?

i think of being another person

working the job they like

i know there will be ups and downs

but at least they love the job, it's part of their passion

and where am i now?

not trying on things i want to do

nor do i work on things i want to do

i felt lazy. i am lazy

don't even know what kind of job i wanna do

society , and my mom, dad, family, dictates that a person like me, who is an overseas graduate, shouldn't work a lowly job (cust service, admin staff)

but for something bigger.

now how do we get the chance to do something bigger when you are just a small potato? would there be anyone want to give you a chance in this competitive world nowadays?


i don't know.

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