Day 5 : if only I was not so afraid

If only I was not so afraid
I would have told you that I liked you from the start
I would have told you that I loved you then
I was a fool for letting my fear led my feeling

I was afraid of your rejection
but by the time I gathered all my courage
By that time I knew you love somebody else
and I knew I was too late
if only I was not so afraid




*handwritten with revision


It's been long time since I wrote the last time. I am so busy with work and have no time until the inspiration came to hit me and I have to write it down because I don't have my laptop with me.

I guess, love is not all about happiness and flower.

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