lonely...




aku bngung aq harus gmana...
apakah aku harus bersabar? ataukah aku harus marah?
itu semua, entahlah...
aku bingung
smua kesalahan-kesalahan itu, ditimpakan padaku...
apakah aku reinkarnasi dari Atlas? yg selalu meminggul beban langit di pundaknya?
kenapa hanya aku yang disalahkan?
padahal mereka lebih banyak melakukan kesalahan besar dibandingkan aku...
hanya karena aku diam, tak berarti aku melawan,...
aku merasa sendiri..
keluargaku selalu menyalahkan aku...
lantas apa guna aku disini?
dan, aku sndiri bingung,,, apakah aku meminta untuk dilahirkan?
dan aku.. entahlah..
lebih baik tak ada
itu kata orangtuaku..
lebih baik aku tak dilahirkan...
benar... kelahiranku tak pernah diharapkan...

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